From Him we draw our strength

Numbers 6:24-26
"May the Lord bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace".

Luke 2:40
"And the Child grew and became strong in spirit, filled with wisdom; and the grace of God was upon Him". 

Psalm 127:3
"Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from him".

Mark 9:36–37
"Then he put a little child among them. Taking the child in his arms, he said to them, "Anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf welcomes me, and anyone who welcomes me welcomes not only me but also my Father who sent me." 

The Scare

So the day after I wrote my last post we had our first big scare. I woke up around 4 pm after a 12 hour shift at the hospital. I am talking to Jade and Jora  to see how their day was, then I ask Jade about the babies. Jaycee was doing great but she really hadn't felt anything from the twins. I casually ask her when was the last time she felt them kick. "oh sometime yesterday!" Okay you gotta be freakin kidding me really? Okay Jade here is some coffee and some sugar lets get those babies moving. After a long time of nothing it is time to 

call the doctors. We were told to go to labor and delivery to get things checked out.

 I am trying to hold it together and not let Jade know how scared I am for she needs my strength. But as we are sitting in the waiting room I burst into tears. Has all our fears been realized? Has the babies life line turned into a double edged sword, severing the link to the life it gives? I step outside to collect myself. When I come back in I am so proud of her as she is sitting there so sure of everything. She tells me Mom it will be okay I know they are fine. She has faith in God and her little miracles. She just knows these babies are meant to be. She asks me to buy her a package of starburst, right now I will deny her nothing. I get her a package then she instantly pops a pink strawberry one in her mouth. Within 5 minutes she goes awwhh the babies like the candy. My spirits soar she felt a movement. My tears start to flow again but this time it is from relief!!

We finally get a room and the RN puts a doppler on Jades belly. Baby "A" heart rate is 154 and baby "B" heart rate is 146. Oh another sigh of relief. Jade is then ushered back for an ultrasound. A feeling of doom settled back over me when I learned the growth discordance between the babies had grown. They are now a week apart in size. I feel that knowledge is power so I hit the internet running. I contacted different organizations trying to get information specific to MoMo twins. They are so rare that the info you find is on MoDi twins and is hard to correlate to MoMos. 

I have accumulated many questions to ask Jades Peri at our anatomy and physiology ultrasound on the 15th. At this appointment we get to meet one of the other Perinatologist of Kaiser Roseville. When the tech is done Doc comes in and we are again are super impressed. He answered 8 of the 10 questions before I even asked them. He also gave us more information. It feels very good leaving a doctors appointment feeling fully informed and we are grateful. It feels safe to be putting our trust in these doctors because they truly have these little babies lives in their hands. So here is the update on the babies:

They are doing amazing.
Baby A is 10 oz(283grams) in size which is 50th percentile for gestation age
Baby B is 7 oz(198 grams) in size which is 25th percentile for gestation age
Their hearts, Kidneys, lungs and brains are all as they should be in fact all their vitals organs are. The babies have no noted malformations.  The  blood flow through the cords is perfect with no restrictions. There is still about a week size difference between them BUT doc said no need to worry there are no indications of problems.

Oh yeah and they are still girl.....


Next appointment is Dec 6th see you then!!

20 weeks

 

18 weeks and counting...



We went to see her Peri on 10/26 everything looked as it should one baby was a little bigger than the other but not enough to cause the doc any concern. The cords are knotted already but then we knew that from the last appointment. I don't believe that her peri has seen anything to cause concern. I believe we would have been told .We are going to get a Doppler scan to check the flow at the next appointment which is 11/15. They are going to be doing an anatomy and physiology scan on both babies at this appointment which will be an in depth exam to look for abnormalties. My goodness it is almost the 15th.

 I am rejoicing at how time flys. I try not to watch the clock so time doesn't slow down for we are getting closer to the milestone of 20 weeks. Then on to 24, 25, 26, 27......... It seems like this pregnancy is full of milestones that you cant wait to reach holding your breath until you do. Then you take a deep breath and hold your breath again waiting to reach the next milestone. I know these girls are strong I know they are fighters and that they are blessed by the grace of God. Why do I doubt? Why am I scared ? Why do I refuse to buy anything but two of everything? I am trying to be my daughters rock. I am trying to stay positive. I see image after image of these little girls touching. hugging, kissing and I know how much they love each other already. And I know how much we love them. They were made to come into this world together and together they will come. I have faith and I trust in Gods love to protect them, keeping them alive and healthy.

So above you will note the emotions that overwhelm me everyday. I try to stay positive but doubt creeps in and I have have to shove it out. Most of the time I am not strong enough to do it on my own so I must then lean on God and my faith. He comforts me and lets me know it is going to be okay.

By the way did I mention we found out on 10/26 that they are girls.





They can't keep their hands off each other :)